A story about someone faking their way through life, traumatized by a perceived rejection after their parents divorce. Even if you can't relate to the source of the trauma, I think a lot of people have felt this way before.
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Make it
All up now
Start flailing and
Groaning
Emoting
Alarming
“It’s hurting” but I’m lying
Future permissing
Eternal masquerading
Slowly Abandoning
Feelings marching a Death Parade
Easy! I’m a shadow
That goes wherever light flows
So when I hear them crow
I’m so set to go
No Night
Desire affection
So I head their direction
No flaws in my complexion
I blend in with perfection so how come is it you are able to see through each last of my preparations, laugh, and forgive me without even a second thought?
Who knows!?
On that fated day so long ago
Captured by a lethargic coup d’etat
My feelings were imprisoned deep inside and now a marionette runs the show
Living a scripted, rehearsed life, I play the part of a star with no flaws
I will deceive even myself so
Come on, smile and play!
Take it
Arbitrary
And Frankly
Unhealthy
Learned how to live without a heartbeat for the sake of the show
The past has been drowned out
By my ideals, on the lookout
For the chance at a full rout
Emotions bankrupt with no bailout
And so, I’ve become a chameleon that’s
Deceiving everyone just so I can blend in
Ah how bad I long to belong
Don’t show!
Addicted to overacting
Subduing a lethargic coup d’etat
So that I won’t end up abandoned I will fight in hell and even through heaven
But the battlefield is obstructed and
My sentiments lost in the fog of war
I only ever defeat myself
Now and forever
Mondays are the worst as everybody knows
Turn around three times and bark like a dog at shadows
Bottomless void in me’s slowly drip-fed tears
Mother, brother, come back, it’s been how many years?
Frenetic and desperate for those called “true peers”
After graduation, everyone disappears
One day I will surely transform back to “me”
Hidden deep inside me, can I find this “belief”?
For a reject like me, nothing can be scarier than being ignored or told I’ve driven them away
Is anyone willing to stay?
Who knows!?
On that fated day so long ago
Captured by a lethargic coup d’etat
My feelings were imprisoned deep inside and now a marionette runs the show
Living a scripted, rehearsed life, I play the part of a star with no flaws
I will deceive even myself so
They never will know
Addicted to overacting
Subduing a lethargic coup d’etat
So that I won’t end up abandoned I will fight in hell and even through heaven
But the battlefield is obstructed and
My sentiments lost in the fog of war
I only ever defeat myself
Go on, go laugh some more!